Thinking Like Everyone else

There I was sitting at the table playing cards with a couple of good friends. I have no idea where these explosive words came from but nevertheless they somewhat hurt. "Jeyson your so fucking weird" somehow seeped into my thin head and manifested its ugly self. I sat there for a moment digesting what was just said and realized that what I  was trying to be was like everyone else. That car ride back home was a very translucent drive. I just couldn't wrap that idea that I was becoming everyone else and leaving my real self out to dry. Well word to the wise people us "weird" people is what makes this "weird" planet of ours the shit. Give it up to the weird people!

The space between our lips

Zero
we have become
A negative
terrain we
tread upon
Pieces and Pawns
fill our
minds with
unbelievable
disasters
gray hurt
dark life
Our reflections
minus
Our mirrors
minus
your thoughts

Frozen Thoughts Frozen Walls

This Labyrinth
that
you put up
Does nothing
but
guide me
into
your chest
stop
This Ice Queen
pressures
me
into
thawing
her
I need her
not
her frozen
actions
Those Phantom
words
turn
me
into
this
Phantom Warrior

Fuel Fires me

My rocketship
failed
space is cold
your stars
your comets
Blind
Death brings
joy
to my empty
empty
eyes
Ground Control
flew away
and said
"This Final Mission
Will Always be
Yours"
Well my
Pale
Fingertips
will always
be yours

your faults my faults

Your hurtful
Expressions
Shine as though
Your life
Clings upon
Other lives
I hope you
know
that your bullets
Penetrate
Everything
we have
worked
on
My shield
once
believed
unpenetrable
sooths the
fact
Your misery
brings
memories
misery

In-case all our pixes

A rock
your glitter
flutters with
the ambition
of the leaves
in Autumns
dusk
But where
are we
at
A rock
you have
become
inside
I try
And
Tried
but this
Tragedy
mimics
me
endlessly
Please
Terrorize
anything
but me

*My attempt a poetry

My little heart they call Phantom

Well I can actually say I never thought I Jeyson Beasley would ever pour his heart out onto a blank digital slate but well there is a first time for everything right? Well  I can clearly and honestly and angrily and fearfully say that everything isn't ok. Life just seems to be a pitch and the world is the bat and I am of course is the ball. Well lets just say the world has been hitting me hard for the past couple days. Reality and girls and money and Valentines day just don't do anything to help me.

my little heart they call phantom

The lighting Bolts in my head

 Well at the moment my ipod is screaming "Killers!" so i have to abide by it. Now that i have The Killers rupturing my ear drums I would like to bring up the subject of interracial relationships. My wonderful girlfriend of 5 years is hispanic and well if you havent seen my profile picture I am black. Recently Her and I went to a resturant (which all of the crew was hispanic) and ordered our food and sat down and began to eat it. Well me being a big guy devoured my food and looked up to see the whole resturant staring at my girlfriend and myself. So there I think to myself "Is it always going to be this way"? Meaning is it always going to be akward glances when people of different races who have deep emotional feelings for one another are seen together ? I mean come on. It is 2011 and who in the hell cares if your dating a black man or hispanic woman? I am madly in love with my girlfriend and there is nothing that will stop her and I from dating and being together. Well there is my rant and thank you Brandon Flowers for helping me get out my frustration! :)